Tinkie A.D.

A bridge between the hands and the heart…

Hi kiddies

Well my sweeties, I thought I’d wait until today to update everyone on how things were going so I’d know for sure. The appetite stimulant Mertazapine didn’t work, we tried it for four days increasing the dose to a safe point on the last day. Dr D says it should work within a 24 hour period so if after all these days we got nothing then we need to stop. So that’s it for that avenue of thinking, we also tried the antihistmine Cypro too a while back and it didn’t work either. Both Mamma and I just Gutted as the Brits would say, we really hoped it would be The answer for me.

So today I went to the vet for my tooth trim and now we have more bad news. The doctor couldn’t do it. There are three injections to complete the sedation, he gave me exactly what I had last time even though I weigh less now and very weirdly the lights went out with in seconds of the first two injections that were given together, last time it took me 10 minutes to show any effects, but I still needed the third injeciton which was Valum cause I was stil moving around too much. so he gave that and I started to get more active and perked up!! It was very weird, but I just couldn’t be sedated enough to do the procedure.

Dr D is stumped and wonders if the Mertazapine may be the monkey wrench in the machine and he has no data to know if it causing me to not be properly effected by the meds. BUT it could also be that my blood proteins are low enough now from further deterioration of liver function to enable the medicines to move through the body to the destination they need to be in order to work. If this is the case there is nothing that can be done, it would be a sign of the inevitable Last time my blood was checked all was still OK in this department.

So….”sigh” Dr D did NOT take blood and test for this, I don’t know if at this point we want to know the game is almost over. But we will try again at the end of the week, hopefully the Mertazapine  should be out of my system to not futher effect the other drugs, IF its that. Then if I cannot be sadated enough, Dr D will have to use the anesthetic regardless of the risks, cause I can’t go on like this anyway.

Dr D has also suggested to Mamma to add some ezymes to my Mash to see if it helps me digest and absorb more from my food that I do get and see if that helps me feel well enough to want to eat on my own.

We drove home through torrential downpours (kind of ironic Mamma says) and it was very noisey but I was waking up in the truck so that by the time we got home I was feeling like nibbling a bit of salad, but then I started to violenly knash my teeth and Mamma was very upset with me. I couldn’t tell her it was just part of the waking up process but finally I did stop doing that. I am on the couch now, snoring/ talking in my sleep and I wake up for  a wee bit to chew on bit  of Kale and cilantro. Mamma will syringe me some mash once I wake up a bit more.

I feel like we are out in a rubber dingy with land no where in site and we have a few slow leaks and after we fix one leak we get another leak, the dingy is getting thinnner and thinner, but now we can’t even find the leaks anymore. Mamma told Daddy we can’t go on like this forever, even though they both wish we could and they would if they could, but sooner or later…. well you know, everbun has to go sometime.

I had a restless night last night and Mamma stayed up with me for ages trying to calm me down when I’d wake up and get upset, I guess that’s why I’m kinda tired today. But we had lots of smooches and snuggles today while we waited at the vets, some ding bat schedualed us an hour early for our appointment. Me and Mamma snuggled in the truck listening to music for an hour, it was nice. It was also nice while I was sleeping/ crazy dreaming in the office, I knew Mamma was with me the whole time, caressing my face and whispering to me to let me know I would be alright. This time I didn’t get scared when I got the strange images in my crazy dreams. Too bad I got to do it again later though, I hoped to wake up with smooth chompers and Mamma hoped it would be enough to have to tuck in to some salad with serious gusto.

At this point Mamma can still hope as there is nothing definative to say other wise, maybe its stupid or maybe its niave or maybe she needs some medication cause she tries to beleive in something. But to let go of what hope she can muster would be to give up and if she did that she couldn’t take care of me anymore, cause I need her to be strong for me, to beleive that I can get through each day with the dignity and love she has given me. Some would say oh she is only a rabbit, you can get another one, or some might think it pointless as there will be no cure for me. But we only have each moment alone to live and for now I still want to, I still want to be held and kissed and talked to and to see my garden grow. I want to see my Mamma’s eyes light up when she looks at me cause I can see and feel her love. And I still want to hear my Daddy giggle like a little girl when I smooch his ears,  that is worth living for even though I have to wear a diaper and have my food fed to me through a syringe. I am blessed to not have any pain, I am so grateful that huge blessing. So Mamma please keep believing in me, cause I’m still in here.

OK enough of that, I have a little ironic and funny story to tell. Yesterday at the vets Mamma noticed our balance was over $1000, she nearly fainted!! Then when looking over the bills for the last week she realized the dog’s two tooth extractoins came to $700, she looks at the vet assistant and said, “OMG $700 for two teeth, I don’t even like that dog that much!! Its only a dog, its not like its a bunny!!!” hehe, Yup she said that! LOL there was a client sitting mortified in the waiting room as Susan laughed at Mamma and said, “You are possibly the only one of the plantet to have said that! Usually they hear it the other way around!” hehe I guess it was lucky for Tera she didn’t get the quote for her tooth job before hand or she might had Daddy take out those teeth! I’m kidding!! Mamma would never deny any of us fur kids medical help. She keeps telling that to Daddy anyhow, eventually it’ll sink in.

Well kiddies, I think Mamma has officially lost her MIND!! I can’t believe but she actually thinks I’m gonna eat somebun else’s cecal!!!  NOT…

So poor Gracie sat in her carrier with her cone on for 5 hours. Mamma did give her some hay and some of our tastiest treats, but she had to sit in the laundry room with Mamma while she was spring cleaning in there. Mamma was very surprised that Gracie was such a good girl, she had several naps and munched on some tasties and somehow she figured out how to get her little paw inside the cone so she could lick her paws and wipe her face. Mamma kept makin her pull her leg out but she’d even rest with her paw through it. Anyway, Mamma wanted to figure out what time of day G made her cecals so she made her stay in there until finally she made some. Well at 8 pm she finally made a stinkie!! I don’t know why but Mamma and  Daddy were very happy about this. “Big deal” I said, I can make a ton of poopies if I want to!!

OK so then Mamma came at me with G’s stinkie ass Cecals and OMG do they stink, they are nothing like my own and I was not impressed with Mamma started stickin those in my face. I tried to fake her out and pretend that I took a bite, but she didn’t fall for it. she even tried to get me to eat some of my own first and I wouldn’t do that either. So she tried for quite a while, she even put some of my bacon on them to see if I would eat them. NO I do not like Bacon on my poo or anybun else’s poo, thank YOU!! Finally Mamma put the two little stinkie nuggets in a baby food container and let me have a break.

An hour later Mamma made the mistake of opening that baby food container and OMG, it was like a huge stink bomb went off, both Mamma and Daddy started gaggin and almost passed out from the smell! Poor Gracie, I think she might have been mad that her beautiful cecal was being subject to my rejection and their revoltion! I guess she really wanted it for herself.

So I ended up with some of the cecals in my yap, but I figured out how to spit them out. Mamma finally gave up for the night, but I hear she’s planning on trying again in a few days. I think I might take my new skateboard and run away from home, but its raining today so I guess I’ll have to wait. I also have  a problem deciding which clothes to pack.

So last night when it was bedtime, I faced my bum to MOM and she had her back me, I know she’s mad at me and frustrated that i won’t eat nothing and I won’t try the ceals. She caught me just the other day eating a wad of Gracie’s fur that Puds yanked out, but I don’t care anymore, I’m mad at her too!! Well this morning I was still ignoring her when we woke up, but she pulled me over to her and started to smooch on me so I know she still loves me so I kissed her too and nuzzled her for ages just to let her know I’ll forgive her, but I still don’t want those stinkin cecals

Well Buns,

We don’t have any luck yet. This is way harder than we ever thought. Gracie does not want me to have her cecals Last night Mamma had a talk with G on the dining room table and asked her if she’d help me. Then Mamma did get the diaper on her alright and she sat there for several minutes letting Mamma pet her and she was fine. Mamma even let her wear one the bridal tiaras!! Well then it was time to put her in her house and she just hopped right out of it!

Mamma tired a few more times and even put a Tshirt on her and taped the shirt to the diaper, well that’s when Gracie started to panic a bit. I feel so bad for her and I think Mamma did too. Poor Gracie jumped around a bit and tried to get out of diaper and she couldn’t so then she just lay in her corner panting. That when Mamma almost started to cry and said the hell with this, she didn’t want to traumatize her more.

Several minutes after getting all her gear off, Gracie just hung out on her top level in his house scowling at Mamma but she was quickly fine and returned to her normal self. So like a pit bull with a stick, Mamma decided to gingerly try out a cone on her and see what happened. NOT good

She got in on Ok, but when she tried to hop around in her house naturally it would hang up on stuff and she couldn’t move around good. Gracie managed to get up on her top shelf to rest and then quickly decided she wanted down again, Uh OH, that when it happened, she fell face first and landed with the cone side down and her body sticking straight up in the air, she was stuck like that. Poor thing was shocked and didn’t struggle and Mamma grabbed her so fast I’m not sure if Gracie actually knew what happened. Thank Goodness she was OK, Mamma would never have forgiven herself if she had been hurt. Obviously the collar came off and Mamma decided to think this through a bit more.

Mamma was thinkin about getting cecals from someone else’s bunny, but… who knows what household bacteria they got floating around or what pathogens are naturally present in those buns. I think it would be nice to traumatize someones else’s bun, but Gracie has been my house mate for 5 years and chances are what she’s got or I got, so Mamma thinks this is the safest as this treatment is controversial and potentially dangerous if I were to be compromised with something while I’m already so sick. So she believes if we are going to do this, it has to be Gracie seems her health is immaculate and she and I are as good as sisters (although she already hates me, what’s a few cecals amongst family!!)

So after a bit more reading, apparently buns eat and then for next four hours that’s when they pass the regular poo balls, its in the next four hours that they begin to pass the cecals. So Mamma’s idea is this. Give Gracie a nice feed in the morning and then put the cone on her but put her in a smaller carrier with a nice blankie and some hay. she tired it last night and well although it went well for Gracie, she was calm the whole time and didn’t freak out at all, she didn’t give us any cecals Mamma had her in the carrier for 2 hours. It seems that Gracie could only move around a bit the cone didn’t bother her too much other then when she wanted to wash her face. She kept licking the inside of the cone and wiping the outside with her paw. Mamma will try this method again today, this time she’ll let Gracie wait 6 hours after eating then she’ll go in the carrier with the cone for the last two hours of that 4 hour window of cecal production, maybe we’ll have some luck?

Gracie seems just like normal today, she’s had her salad and now she is enjoying some very tasty hay that Aunti Paula sent us, its a real treat and
Gracie seems to have put all of last night behind her, she didn’t even threaten me this morning!!

OK Kiddies, I forgot to update a few details yesterday. We have given up on the appetite stimulants. Mamma mentioned to Deb she thought it worked that first day but not the second. Deb said it was probably the acupuncture that got me eating for the day, and it always just lasts a day when I do get eating from a treatment. Too bad I couldn’t have acupuncture everyday, then I’d eat every day!! Not very practical I guess and I’d have to become a millionaire to afford it!! Maybe an acupuncturist will adopt me!? We still hold hope this cecal transfaunation so to speak will be what will get me going again. apparently there is an actual procedure where cecals from a healthy bun can be injected into  the GI tract via a catheter tube up the butt.I was sent a bit of info about this by another bunny here on bunspace, so I guess our idea is not so crazy. OOh this sounds so scary, I hope eating them will do the trick. But I have to say it is a relief to hear about this though, I think we are on the right track here.

Oh a funny story Aunti sent us a ton of tasty hay again and a few pressies!! Yay, Aunti you spoil me so much!! Anyway the best was the this gorgeous and luxurious fleece tied blankie and Mamma decided to fold it in half and put it in my carrier. Oh boy it is so nice and cozy in there now, I love it!! Well at the vet they got this resident cat Scooter, he’s a big young boy and a bit crazy but he likes me and he tried to steal my salad and crackers. Well yesterday mamma had me crawling on the floor in my diaper while we waiting to get in to see Deb, Scooter went right into my carrier and snuggled down in my new blankie!! I barely had it broken in and there he was!! He refused to get out and he napped in there the whole time I was there, at the end of my appointment Deb pulled him out and before Mamma got me back in, he went back in! OMG that cat is so spoilt!! He has a very nice cushy and comfy bed that was gifted to him by another client and I said to him, OK Scooter, you want my carrier then I’ll trade you for you bed, he said no way!! What a saucy feline!!

OK that’s it for now, sorry these are always so long I’ll let yous know how things go with Gracie this afternoon, we’ll keep our toes crossed for sure. I’ll only need a few of her cecals and I guess I’ll need a few treatments as long as I’m on the antibiotics, Poor Gracie, I wouldn’t want to be her right now. I’m sure she’ll be thinking of a way to report Mamma for her abuse. At least she is getting lots of treats out of the deal and pellets which she hasn’t had in well over a year, you’d think she’d be happy about that!

Poor Gracie, even the tiara didn’t cheer her up!! We got a ton of treats and I got the new blankie and this new bunny friend to snuggle with. Hehe the little white bunny hops when you wind him up. Mamma got some seeds to plant for us and a cute little bunny pin and of course she got some treats to share with Daddy~ that is if he’s nice!!

Trinket with Dougie at Big Bay Ontario

Hello Kiddies!! Wow did I have a very full day yesterday, Holy Cwap, it was a lot for a wee “invalid” bun

Well I guess that is the newest medical technical term for my conditon~ invalid, and I don’t like it!!

Ok on with my report. So yesterday was going to the vet day so that I could get my weekly acupuncture and check up. So this Mamma insisted we try some heavy duty appetite stimulants seems its been over a month anyway since I’ve stopped eating but with sporadic nibbling. My weight is down to 1 kg again but at least it doesn’t get any lower. So Mamma gave Dr Deb two of her researched suggestions and Cyproheptadine was finally agreed upon and Deb gave me a dose right there in the office. I have to say she is a great vet, but not so good at giving a bun oral meds!! Hehe, Mamma told her she sucked at that and then Deb laughed and blushed, Geese Mamma that’s my main medical care giver, way to go makin her feel bad!! Naughty Mom! So a couple hours later I did start to eat a lot better that I usually do. Mamma thinks it works but is worried about having to use it too much, long term would not be a good thing for me and would probably cause other problems. so we’ll proceed slowly and see how things go. My herbs were increased a bit for the tummy and the dizziness one was put back to once a day seems there is no more signs of any head tilt!! Yay for that

So Mamma has also suspected the pus is back in my urine and sure enough Deb said my bladder points were very active, so I got acupuncture for that and was given antibiotics by needle again. I hate it but we can’t have the infection getting ahead of us again, right now things aren’t too bad so hopefully it will clear quick. The big issue for me is seems I’m paralyzed on the back when I do my poopies I’m draggin myself around in it, if I’m wearing a diaper or in my cart I use the ladies pad, so its natural no matter now often Mamma changes me that I get contamination from that, so that is how I am getting these e.coli infections. Its a big problem in paralysed pets. So we have to just deal as best we can I guess.

Other than that Deb thought I look quite chipper yesterday and both Mamma and Daddy agreed I was having a pretty good day. Mamma discussed that a lot of my problem is depression as I loose more of my ability to get around and she has asked Mamma to consider my quality of life. Mom told her she has noticed if she keeps me with her and lots of snuggles and now that I sleep with her in the bed, I am much happier and depression is not bothering me, but if I am left in my hutch cause Mamma is having a busy day I am quite depressed and have trouble managing on my own. I like to be hand fed better then left on my own too. So Deb says she has to shift her perception of my care now and think of me as an invalid and take those steps to keep up with my needs. Well both Daddy and Mamma have been doing this and things are getting a bit better. Deb even suggested one of those carrier or slings a person wears over their shoulder so the baby in hanging in front of them, but mamma worries about the added pressure on my hiney, seems there is not muscle there anymore we have to be careful of pressure sores.

So I spend alot more time in my soft pet bed and Daddy put a third leg on my cart with a wheel on my weak side. It looks weird but it helps to give me more support on that side. Mamma still has to get some photos of that yet. And I’m in diapers a lot more, they seem to be keepin me dyer and cleaner now that I’m not moving around much on my own anymore.

So then on the way home Mamma and Daddy decided to take the scenic route and made a few stops to take some pics and enjoy the beautiful place that is our neighborhood! I’ll share  a couple of the photos here but the rest will be in my profile album on bunspace. Yesturday’s photos will be under “Near our House” http://www.bunspace.com/bprofile_photos?bunid=5086.

Here is a favorite of mine but it has a funny story with it!! Mamma has never heard a bunny fart, until yesterday and OMG how embarrassing!! I guess she was squeezing me too tight or something, but I let is go and it was at least 3 or 4 seconds, Mamma thought I let go a bunch of diarrhea or something the way it sounded, but not it was all Audio!! hehehe

Laura and Trinket near Big Bay Ontario

OK, this was taken a cute little parket about 10 km from our house, its Georgain Bay in the background and there are few islands out there too, this rocky beach goes for miles and miles but there are all high end cottages and homes along the water, but here is a nice bit reserved for the public.

The only nasty thing about this little jaunt was when Mamma was carrying me down to the water she stepped right over a snake and didn’t see it. Mamma is big fat chicken with it comes to snakes, but this one is harmless, but Daddy saw it and told her where it was so then on she was all nervous and couldn’t enjoy the beach. On the way back to the truck Daddy took the snakes picture and then Mamma found it when she was uploading the pics to her camera, Oh boy there was some swearing then!! Daddy you are naughty!! No smoochies for you!

So Daddy had to go back to work last night and I had to go with Mamma into town again to drive him to his truck at the shop!! “thump” I was not up for another hours drive, but Mamma won’t leave me on my own no more! She says she could tell I started to get depressed again as soon as Daddy told me he was going again. I was so happy when he came home and I was smoochin on him like crazy this weekend, I guess now that I’m getting more poorly I miss him so much more. Mamma says I was clearly missing him this week and perked right up when he came home. Daddy says maybe he could stay home with me and Mommy could go drive the truck! UM….., NO!!  That’s not a good idea! hehe.

Oh and he was mad at Mom about being on the couch alone without me this weekend seems I started sleepin with Mamma. His last night home, she held me out for my bedtime kiss and he kissed me so nice then Mamma puckered for her kiss and she got ASS!!! hehe Daddy’s  ass is not pretty like a bunny butt!! hehe, well it wasn’t his real butt, it was a cranky face though and then finally she got her kiss. Well you know he has been very mean this weekend, Daddy told Momma SHE had a big ass, mind you she did say that HE was HER ass first! But I have to say he was treading on thin ice with that one, not too many times can a guy get away with tellin his wife she has a big ass unless she did first say that he is her ass. She gave him some serious disapproval anyway all the while he laughed his ass off.     ~OK I have successfully used ass a lot in this paragraph, hehe I was feelin naughty!

OK I can’t remember anymore of what I wanted to share. I’m hanging in there and Mamma will give me more of that appetite stimulant this afternoon and we’ll see how I eat then and I go back on Thursday for another needle

I love you too Mamma xox

This was my favorite photo of the day, I just had to share it!! hehe she is makin her scrunched up bunny face!!

This is my morning blog from bunspace…

Oh my Goodness, Bunnies~ all your love and support must be giving me strength

So I am still here this morning, another day and a beautiful day it is. It was such a long night last night. I have been allowing Mamma to syringe me the CC although I tried to tell her a few times I didn’t want anymore but she asked me with her whole heart that I keep trying so I did, even though I would have preferred to have been left alone. But the best part was I stretched out on Mamma’s shoulder the whole eventing. I even did much better than the night before when it came to smoochin. Of course I would still smooch like crazy for a while then I’d rest and then I wake up again and start the smooching all over again. It was so nice and warm  under the covers and for the most part that annoying Cat Gypsy was outside we I had Mamma to myself. But finally Mamma said she had to let her in and you know what, that crazy cat used me as her step stoop on her way to rest on Mamma’s hip *sigh* what can a bunny do?

So I had my CC again before bed and Mamma said I could sleep with her in the bed last night so I really looked forward to that so I manged down all the CC. Mamma piled up a bunch of pillows on one side of the bed in case I did decide to wiggle out of my pet (I’m not much for any wiggling now anyways) She used a rolled towel to prop me up under my front legs so I wouldn’t have to struggle to hold myself up, that way I could just relax. I had a tub of salad which smelled nice and I had my “Christopher pillow” to rest my chin on too. So Mamma had me pretty much bundled up and I stayed very still all night. sometimes she’d lay with her face under mine so I could rest my face on her face and smooch her for a while until I fell asleep, but then she’d move and I’d have to use my pillow. I’d smooch on that for a while to let her know I needed her and she’d snuggle into me real close so I smooch her more and finally she did fall asleep. Mamma woke at a couple times, once cause I chewed on a piece of salad, but I still didn’t feel like eating it, I just thought I’d give it a try. and finally at 5:30 Mamma decided my stuffing needed changing so I could be dry. So she took me down to my hutch and she went back to sleep until late this morning. I know she needs to get some good sleep so she can keep up with me today.

So I am still very tired, but I have managed to move around a bit on my own and my smoocher has kicked into operation again after going on the outs the day before. Mamma tried to have “the talk” with me, I know she was trying, but she was really holding back I could tell. I tried to tell her I want to stay with her, I want to see Daddy. I also want her to know that when its my time to go, I will go, but in my time, I still have hope of those tasty spring dandelions yet. For now I will continue with the CC and I will try the panacur too if she wants to try that. I don’t know why I feel so awful and don’t want to eat, and I don’t know what’s going to happen, all I have is right now and I still want to make the most of it. The fluids I got yesterday did help me feel better yesterday and maybe I’ll have more today again as well.

Thank you so much for keepin watch with me, for waiting with me and lending me and Mamma so much love and understanding. I am just a bunny like all of yous, we all share this miracle of love, cuteness and strength, I think somehow the Universe will lend me another miracle, for today anyway. I love you all you Buns, each an every one of you are the best friends ever.. xoxT

Mamma here~ I am in utter shock still, kind of numb and feeling like everything is on hold, like I am still waiting to breath even. I’ve seen T riding a wave of energy, low and then rising up again over and over. She is still pink so her blood pressure is steady, I am so thankful of that. She gets tired easily and naps but wakens with renewed vigor and happiness to be cuddled and smooched. Her depression seemed to lift again yesterday and I think the fluids did help her feel better yesterday even though the session before that seemed to do nothing. She tried to nibble last night and nothing since and I will be giving her CC again pretty soon so we’ll see how that goes today. Last night a few times her breathing seemed to get more rapid and it alarmed me, but she evened out again and she seems stronger this morning then she was yesterday. How can this be? I don’t know. I’ve decided to keep going with her. I’ll stay with her and keep the CC going in as long as she’ll allow me. A few times last night she wanted to stop but I asked her sweetly and gently kept on and she eventually released her clenched teeth and allowed me to proceed. Her swallowing is still very good,but I am keeping the CC a runny as possible to make it easier for her to swallow.

So we go back to the vet this afternoon, I don’t know if they’ll want her to have fluids or not, but I will push for it and I think I’ll leave the Pancur simply because it was my first gut reaction to the suggestion of it. My instinct told me no, that it was too risky . I’m scared crapless to do nothing, but giving her that simple because i am afraid is not making a sound decision. I think too it was Deb’s first response to keep her off everything and see if her system will reset than to give her more of anything right now.  Past experience has always proved that my initial gut reaction to things is correct, when I allow fear to motivate my thinking and decisions that is when things go wrong. so we’ll just wait and see and I hand it all over to Trinket, she is a force of nature truly, I have to have faith that what ever happens now its out of my control and its for the best.  Everyday I’ve had with her in the last year has been a sheer gift and I’ll call it a miracle of her strength combined with amazing vets.  So we wait….

Thank you Thank you thank you!! are words not qualified to express just how grateful I am to all the love and support. I wish there was something better.