Tinkie A.D.

A bridge between the hands and the heart…

Well my sweet friends, I have mixed news…

First I AM getting stronger since I started the heart medicine (benazepril). Last night Daddy put me in my cart and I went sprinting off into the hall up to the kitchen then turned back (had a break at the end) then went back into the living room and then headed to the dining room, hung out for a few minutes, then I headed off into the kitchen (I have never gone in here before on my own) Mamma had to rescue me seems my front legs went all spayed since the floor was so slippery, but then I headed back down the hall again toward the front room where Gracie lives. Mamma had to help me at the ramp though cause by this time I couldn’t lift my feet high enough to clear the matt, but she helped and I wheeled out to show Gracie that I was STILL the alpha bun of the house! So There!! hehe then Mamma helped back to the living room a few minutes later and then I was done flat out. Back to the couch for me for the rest of the night, but this was the most I’ve done in days and days.

So I still sleep most of the time, but I seem way more stable.  Today I ran out my Lasix so we had to go see the vet Dr Dave to get more and more Tramadol too. Mamma noticed today my left eye is really sore and I have been getting cloudy in both eyes for a while and the vets have been keepin an eye on them, apparently they are fatty build up on my lens and not to worry about them, they are a sign of old age and illness but they cause me no pain or problem, but today seemed very different. Anway it was a beautiful day here, breezy, warm, and the sky had clouds so it wasn’t too hot cause of the sun so we thought we’d do a stroll today as well.

Off to the vet and guess what he said, I am doing WAY better than the other day!! He called me the Energizer Bunny and is in disbelief about how much improvment. I have to say I am still very sick and still far from where we’d like me to be, but he said almost everyone else would have me PTS (he needs to check out BS!!), but seems Mamma is SO tenacious and willing to do all she does and is very perceptive to my needs as the complication arrise he feels we can keep going for a while. He says another caridac event very well may end it for me, but for now the meds are working together and he feels the heart meds will help my heart even though its damaged. He says I will always need the meds at the level I am on right now and at anytime they may become ineffective, but for now things are looking hopeful. He says he is gonna research more options for Pain control too so maybe I won’t have to be so sleepy!!

So the sad news is I have an ulcerated eye. He thinks its just happened in less than 24 hours and mamma and Daddy can’t figure when its happened, I haven’t had any hay or been near anything sharp, the only thing we think maybe in happened in the night. Its on the side Daddy sleeps on and maybe I got too close to his beard, we don’t know Anyway he says its bad enough but not so bad it can’t heal, so I got some drops I got to get every 4 hours and I’m already on all the pain meds, Metacam is most favored I guess for is inflamation reduction powers as well. So my eye looks aweful, its all white in the centre and full of dye right now where the hole is. What more can I go through I wonder, this is getting a bit rediculous I have to say. Mamma was very upset but stayed calm and went through everything with Dr Dave about being able to continue and although he first thought not, he does now think we are strong enough team to stay ahead of  this thing for a while. So its still day to day, but I think we can put some more of those days together!!

So with that all said, we did have an adventure today, even with my sore eye! First we stopped in Keppel at this cute little parkette so Daddy could change my diaper (apparently I was stinkin them out of the truck) The Ladies Institute built this lookout over the bay and they had made a beautiful Tea Party Setting all made in cast steel, I had my photo taken with Mamma and with some tea cups and tea pots. Then after the vet we went down to the Harrison Park in Owen sound and we strolled around after Mamma and Daddy had a little picnik dinner. We saw these very crazy people on the river, they took these inflatable air mattresses and were riding them down the river!! OMG it as too funny so Daddy got some pics. It was very relaxing and Mamma says somewhat emotionally rejuvenating although they are both pretty depressed and exhausted from everything that has been going on.

Here is a picture of me from this morning. I was pretty exhausted after having my morning Mash and feeling a bit sorry for myself considering my eye (I’m feeling a bit better now) So I was hanging out with Daddy on his belly. It was kind of humid so we were both hanging out with out our shirts off so please be nice!! Daddy tried to use the flash, but the light just exploded off his belly so he had to take it without so it might be a bit dark, hehe  so i’m hanging in there still my wonderful friends, I am so overwhelmed by all the love, prayers and TEARS. Thank you so much, Mamma says all you that have shed tears for me this week must have somehow helped her Not shed hers. She only broke down twice and I did smooch away her tears, I know she loves me so much, but I have been so grateful she has remained strong and kept moving forward even when everything seems hopeless. I know its been hard on her spirit, wavering from hope and dispair all within hours and then back again. But she did understand me when she was about to give it all up, when all I could do was smooch like crazy and eat as much as I possilble could just to say please hang in there with me Mamma, I got more to do yet. I really need to make my exit on my own terms. For now I am concentrating on LOVE, the love I have here, the love I have for my Mamma and my Daddy and the love I got for Puds and Gracie too, just don’t tell them!! ((smooches to All YOU)) xox T

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