Tinkie A.D.

A bridge between the hands and the heart…

Hi my Bunny friends…

Oh my goodness, I don’t know where to start? OK, the last few days have been going along and Mamma has been holding her breath nearly hopin and prayin that there has been some improvement. Well we both think that there has been. I am almost afraid to say so, but I will and hopefully that will make it real. But its still tough as well. My herb has been working good every 3 1/2 to 4 hours to make me nibble and keep me from grinding any teeth. Mamma has not let me go longer to see what happens cause its just too hard on me to get me comfortable again. THe Metacam is still barely doing it for me and only for 10hours so Mamma has decied on Monday to ask Dr Deb for some Tramadol for me, for a while at least while we are waiting for this Yucca stuff to work and the Glucasamine/Condroitin.

Sadly I have had a few more seizures, until last night they were just little ones and they were over quick and I recovered quickly as well, If Mamma hadn’t been holding me she may have never have known I had them. I know Mamma is still very worried and I can feel it, but she has been very calm since we had “the Talk”

Well we have hit a glitch in our plan. Mamma didn’t realize I would be going through so much herb since I’m getting it so often and it has been working so well.  On Thursday she realized I was gonna run out. so she has been trying to get some more, but where she gets it, they have been away. Finally yesterday she got through and hoped she could get some yesterday but it didn’t happen and I ran out. So calmly Mamma decided to split the high dose of metacam into two and give it to me 12 hours apart to get me through until MOnday. Well my vets have been adament about Mamma not doing this before, but what else could she do? Mamma did some googling and has seen reference to several rabbit people doing this so she is hopin for short period its OK. Well the wierd thing is she had only one dose of the herb left and last night I managed to slide past the 4 hour point without needing it so Mamma waited until bed and gave me the Metacam and saving the herb.

Well we went to bed like any other night. Mamma was holding me while I was in my little pet bed and I was snuggled up into her and she usually does some Reiki and we listen to music while we drift off. Some nights I might chew on some salad. Well suddenly Mamma wakes up, she had fallen asleep while she was still holding me and I was going crazy, I was clawing the air and her like I was trying to drag myself out of my grave!! Mamma threw on the light and my eyes were huge and I was grinding my teeth like mad. She hadn’t rolled on me or anything like that and she had no idea what was happening, but she grabbed me and held me close to her chest so I couldn’t hurt myself and I was breathing so fast it was 4 or 5 times what I should have been breathing. She could feel my heart pounding so fast it was vibrating in my chest so fast it was sending pain down Mamma’s arm while she held me. She was spookily calm through all of it and I could hear her whispering her goodbyes to me, telling me again all the things she loved and admired about me. She talked about Minnie and B and how happy they would be to see me and how everything would OK. I listened to every word, she kept me ancored to life while eveything else was racing, I though for sure I was going to explode, but I felt her arms holding me tight and I knew she was doing her energy thing trying to calm me. WE stayed like that for half an hour at least and finally Mamma asked me if I could manage to take some of my herb with the banana so she went down to make it for me. when she came back I was still racing but I did manage to get the stuff down my gob when she syringed it in. An hour later I was starting to calm down a bit and finally this morning my breathing and heart rate are normal. Mamma held me for hours until she finally couldn’t stay awake but the crisis was finally subsiding.

So I wake up here again today and there was no tooth grinding, but its time for that split dose of Metacam in 15 minutes, I hope Mamma gives it me. So I won’t nibble this morning, it seems I really do need that herb for that but its been 7 hours since i had any so there is nothing left to stimulate my appetite. I was very scared and I don’t know what happened,but I hope it never happens again. We’ll see what happens today, I sure wish I had my herb though xox T

Mamma here~ OMG I thought that was it, I really thought she was going to have a heart attack. How can such a sick little thing have her heart race and her breathing go so fast for so long and survive? I don’t understand it how her body can contain it, I thought surely she’d explode. I said my goodbyes because that was all I could think to do, to just be there for her and comfort her the best I could. Thankfully I realized that last dose of the herb and it took nearly an hour, but it did calm her brought her closer to normal. It was a long scary night, but all I can figure is that she had seizure. I’d done some reading and from what I could gather, normally when people and I was assume animals have a seizure, at first they become of aware of an altered feeling or sometimes pain, then a switch goes off and the next thing they are aware of is the after feeling and very often its pain. But I think maybe Trinket was aware for hers throughout it, it reminded me of when we had to put Minnie down, that last second of awareness and then what I perceived as fear. Those few seconds haunts my memory, it was eerily similar. So I wonder if she may have had some kind of altered sensation along with the pain that freaked her out. It was more of a fear reaction she had as opposed to pain, and I think the pain was a result of her body’s reaction to the fear. I don’t know for sure, I’m in unchartered territoty here. I’ve been through a lot with my buns but this is all so unfamilar to me, I feel lost and confused. Last night I struggled with trying to help her through it and taking her in at 4am to be PTS. Monday she sees Dr Deb, I’ll go over all this with her and see what she thinks. We haven’t brought the big guns to try and manage the seizures so that is still an option. I just can’t help but taking each day and trying to do the best I can so if she does pull through, there may still be hope for a quality of life and happiness. The glucosamine treatment is two months away from us knowing any impact, it feel crazy in some ways to treat her for something that we won’t see results for that far along, but we have to start somewhere and I know how strong she is, I don’t understand it but I do reconize it.

So the absolute weird thing is that through all of this I am calm, somewhat detached and disconnected but I think its my way of coping. I didn’t cry last night or freak out at all, it was a little fuzzy for a bit but I stayed like a rock, almost shut down so I could do what I had to. I have a feeling when the tears do start I won’t be able to stop them so I do what I have to for now and I’ll worry about that later. Its time for T’s morning Mash and her Metacam so far so grinding, she is resting quite a bit but we just went through Hell not so long ago so I guess its to be expected, but I did just get a kiss, a small glimmer of hope that she wants me to  continue…

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