I’m stil here waiting…
This is my morning blog from bunspace…
Oh my Goodness, Bunnies~ all your love and support must be giving me strength
So I am still here this morning, another day and a beautiful day it is. It was such a long night last night. I have been allowing Mamma to syringe me the CC although I tried to tell her a few times I didn’t want anymore but she asked me with her whole heart that I keep trying so I did, even though I would have preferred to have been left alone. But the best part was I stretched out on Mamma’s shoulder the whole eventing. I even did much better than the night before when it came to smoochin. Of course I would still smooch like crazy for a while then I’d rest and then I wake up again and start the smooching all over again. It was so nice and warm under the covers and for the most part that annoying Cat Gypsy was outside we I had Mamma to myself. But finally Mamma said she had to let her in and you know what, that crazy cat used me as her step stoop on her way to rest on Mamma’s hip *sigh* what can a bunny do?
So I had my CC again before bed and Mamma said I could sleep with her in the bed last night so I really looked forward to that so I manged down all the CC. Mamma piled up a bunch of pillows on one side of the bed in case I did decide to wiggle out of my pet (I’m not much for any wiggling now anyways) She used a rolled towel to prop me up under my front legs so I wouldn’t have to struggle to hold myself up, that way I could just relax. I had a tub of salad which smelled nice and I had my “Christopher pillow” to rest my chin on too. So Mamma had me pretty much bundled up and I stayed very still all night. sometimes she’d lay with her face under mine so I could rest my face on her face and smooch her for a while until I fell asleep, but then she’d move and I’d have to use my pillow. I’d smooch on that for a while to let her know I needed her and she’d snuggle into me real close so I smooch her more and finally she did fall asleep. Mamma woke at a couple times, once cause I chewed on a piece of salad, but I still didn’t feel like eating it, I just thought I’d give it a try. and finally at 5:30 Mamma decided my stuffing needed changing so I could be dry. So she took me down to my hutch and she went back to sleep until late this morning. I know she needs to get some good sleep so she can keep up with me today.
So I am still very tired, but I have managed to move around a bit on my own and my smoocher has kicked into operation again after going on the outs the day before. Mamma tried to have “the talk” with me, I know she was trying, but she was really holding back I could tell. I tried to tell her I want to stay with her, I want to see Daddy. I also want her to know that when its my time to go, I will go, but in my time, I still have hope of those tasty spring dandelions yet. For now I will continue with the CC and I will try the panacur too if she wants to try that. I don’t know why I feel so awful and don’t want to eat, and I don’t know what’s going to happen, all I have is right now and I still want to make the most of it. The fluids I got yesterday did help me feel better yesterday and maybe I’ll have more today again as well.
Thank you so much for keepin watch with me, for waiting with me and lending me and Mamma so much love and understanding. I am just a bunny like all of yous, we all share this miracle of love, cuteness and strength, I think somehow the Universe will lend me another miracle, for today anyway. I love you all you Buns, each an every one of you are the best friends ever.. xoxT
Mamma here~ I am in utter shock still, kind of numb and feeling like everything is on hold, like I am still waiting to breath even. I’ve seen T riding a wave of energy, low and then rising up again over and over. She is still pink so her blood pressure is steady, I am so thankful of that. She gets tired easily and naps but wakens with renewed vigor and happiness to be cuddled and smooched. Her depression seemed to lift again yesterday and I think the fluids did help her feel better yesterday even though the session before that seemed to do nothing. She tried to nibble last night and nothing since and I will be giving her CC again pretty soon so we’ll see how that goes today. Last night a few times her breathing seemed to get more rapid and it alarmed me, but she evened out again and she seems stronger this morning then she was yesterday. How can this be? I don’t know. I’ve decided to keep going with her. I’ll stay with her and keep the CC going in as long as she’ll allow me. A few times last night she wanted to stop but I asked her sweetly and gently kept on and she eventually released her clenched teeth and allowed me to proceed. Her swallowing is still very good,but I am keeping the CC a runny as possible to make it easier for her to swallow.
So we go back to the vet this afternoon, I don’t know if they’ll want her to have fluids or not, but I will push for it and I think I’ll leave the Pancur simply because it was my first gut reaction to the suggestion of it. My instinct told me no, that it was too risky . I’m scared crapless to do nothing, but giving her that simple because i am afraid is not making a sound decision. I think too it was Deb’s first response to keep her off everything and see if her system will reset than to give her more of anything right now. Past experience has always proved that my initial gut reaction to things is correct, when I allow fear to motivate my thinking and decisions that is when things go wrong. so we’ll just wait and see and I hand it all over to Trinket, she is a force of nature truly, I have to have faith that what ever happens now its out of my control and its for the best. Everyday I’ve had with her in the last year has been a sheer gift and I’ll call it a miracle of her strength combined with amazing vets. So we wait….
Thank you Thank you thank you!! are words not qualified to express just how grateful I am to all the love and support. I wish there was something better.
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